Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Exhaustion and also a few other things

I am exhausted in several different ways.

I wish that i did not have to paint.

I wish that I had clarity in one situation that has been ongoing for months now.
(wishing that it would be yes or no)

I am not prepared for my critique tomorrow.

I am listening to bad radio right now.

What are you doing?

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Saturday, March 20, 2010

things as of late

latest ailment: oral candida

latest excitement: spring break, seeing my family, seeing my man, getting straight A's on midterms

latest frustration: Bethel University's uncooperative nature over my transcripts and credit transfer to Hope. I do not want to have to request a transcript that should have been transferred three months ago. Irresponsible, Bethel. Irresponsible.

latest music obsession: Best Friends Forever

latest artist obsession: Henry Darger

Monday, March 15, 2010


artisan of feverish displays
of muscles lit on fire
of dirty spoons

maker of holy things
and secrets.
builder of boxes
and my keeper of affect

blazing white-hot steel
bending rusty nails
feeler of desertion
and my pretender.

artisan of valued heaps
of wet tea bags
and of flattened utensils

of torn plastic.

preacher of failure
of discontent
believer in silence
and maker of reality

artisan of absence
of tangible nothingness
and of you being gone
or wanting to be gone.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

my head in front of your head

my latest favorite song is "my head in front of your head " by Best Friends Forever. I like it almost to the point of wanting it to play at my hypothetical wedding. There is just something about incorporating historical figures and lo-fi music that is incredibly alluring to me. there are some lyrics:

Abraham Lincoln,
I would like to go back in time
and be your wife,
not because I'd be the first lady,
but because I think you're charming.
I would have recited Shakespeare with you
Let you read all the good lines

in other news, i had 3 german papers, 2 paintings, 1 final exam, and a ten page paper all due today. Point being: I have not slept yet in the past 24-48 hours.